Our age, Our time

Run.
Run with all you've got.
As fast as your legs can take you.
Never looking back.
No matter what,
No matter where,
Keep on rshing forward.

Run.
There's no time to regret
Or you'll be left far behind.
In this world full of competition,
olny the fittest shall survive.

What a world we live in.
Society is cruel.
But alas it's part of our daily lives.
Take in the positve,
throw out the negative
but some negatives can be learnt from.

I'm sure everyone,
wishes to live in a world,
with no problems
and to be able to relax.

However, at this time and age,
it is all but a dream,
an illusion.

For that, call it cruel as you may
but, life in our age,
is just the way it is.
So, keep on running.
We shall stop,
olny when our body gives out
and we return to earth.

I was born into this world
Without your precense.
I didn't know how you looked like.
Nor did I know who you are.

As days, months, years,
passed by, I grew up.
And you olny came back home for a lingering moment.

Childhood times,
I still remembered.
Of how I would disobey you,
causing trouble,
and spoiling our family's name.

The times, where you would beat me,
scold me.
The times which I though I hated you.
That hatred and anger, I kept it within me.

I couldn't vent it out for some reason.
I wanted to know why.

Time pressed on.
Never stopping.
I'm a teenager now.
And he still comes home olny for a bit.

As I mature, I gained some answers to my question.
I respect him now for being the sole bread winner for my family.
He is someone which I respect the most.
Above all.
Respected then any other hero.
He is,
My father.

As I write my feelings down now,
It takes me back to the times
where I would see other children with their parents.
I have mother,
but I feel like I'm incomplete.

I would always ask myself,
'Why isn't my father here?'

I am one of those who do not know
what fatherly love means.
I could olny just imagine.
But never hope to get as of now.

Father.
I'm sorry.
For all the trouble I have caused you.
I haven't been a good son.
I have let you down.
My grades aren't good at all.
I feel as if my future will turn out bad.

All I wanted to is to bring glory to the family.
To make mother proud.
And make you proud.
I want to see both of your joyful expressions
if I accomplish something,
be it big or small.

I just want to make you proud.
For what I accomplish.

But the many times I told myself that I would change,
I just couldn't.

I still stuck to my normal ways.
Not studying.
Nor do I bother about my future.
As the major exams come closer now,
I start to get scared.

I am alot of pressure.
I don't know what you two would do if
I were to score bad grades
and end up nowhere..

I don't want that!
I don't want to be at the losing end!
I want to be someone which is usefull to the society.
Someone which would make you two proud.

But at the rate I'm going..
I don't think I could do it.
I'm lost.
I'm pathetic..

All I'm doing now is cry.
Every night.
As I reflect upon myself.
Why can't I do anything about it?
Why can't I just sit down and study like
those top students do?
Why do I waste my wandering around and live in my own world!
WHY!
Why...

If I were to get bad grades..
Everyone will be dissapointed with me.
I would have let everyone down.

Mother..
Father..
Grandma..
Uncle..
Everone who expects so much from me..

I'm sorry..
I just can't do as much..
I've let you all down.

School

Every morning, 6:45am

I would usually take the bus.
Where was I going?
It's so much of a daily routine that,
our bodies automaticaly does it.

After a few minutes ride, I finally arrived.

At a compound.
Many times bigger then our homes.

Though big, it's still comfy.
Enough to cal it our second home.

All around me, there was a bunch of emotions.
Some were happy,
Some wore a tired expression
while others just dragged their feet to the gates.

We have all come.
To our second home,
Our school.

I could here the chime of the bell.
Signaling either dread or joy.

No matter what happens here,
bittersweet and sour memories would always remain.
All the things I've learnt in this dome of knowledge,
I'll never forget them.

After going through 3/4 of day at school,
I finally stepped out of the gates.

Looking back at it,
I'm awfuly glad I'm studying here.
No matter what the hardships,
I'd always be grateful to you,
my school

Resolution/\niotuloseR

The hustle bustle of the city
Which I just want to get away from.

Neon lights,
Congested roads,

People rushing home from work
After a tired day with a smile on their face.

Why are they smiling? I asked myself.
"They long to be with their family after a long day"
Came a voice from the back of my mind.

I continued walking on.
The scenery changed to a park full with couples.
Kissing,
embracing each other.
Why are they smiling? I asked myself.
"They are happy to be with their partner"
Came the same voice.

Mixed feelings ensued.
Jealousy, pain, lonliness.
I begun to run.
Run as fast as my legs could take me.
Running till my lungs and legs finally gave up on me.
I finally collapsed to the floor.

Everything was black.
"Why am I running? I asked myself yet again.
This time, there came no answer.
I guess, it's up to me to find the answer by myself.

As I calmed down,
I remembered my family, friends and the one I loved.
What's the use of running around?

I sat up.
I remembered the reasons why people smiled.

I stood up, closed my eyes and screamed out loud.
Venting all my frustrations and anger in that one scream.

Out of breath, I stopped and opened my eyes.
A mirror was infront of me.
A smile was on my face.

Why was I smiling? I asked myself.
"To a continue living for a better future ahead"

This time, the voice came from me.

Mirror

I wandered around.
Ever wandering.

Never stoping.
Afraid of turning back.

Running from reality.
As always.

No matter how many vows I made,
I tend to break mine instead of others.

Unreliable,
That's what I am.
Can't be trusted even with the simplest of tasks.

Baka ne?
I asked myself.

After all that running,
I finally ask myself,
Why am I running?
Why can't I stop?
Why can I face reality head on?

That's all in the past now.
It's all but a vision.
A vision of what I would have been if didn't change.

I awaken from my trance.
The melody played from my guitar was the music which represents me.
I reflect on myself as the rythm unsued in my mind.
I continued strumming.
For I don't want to forget myself.

Before I would want to love someone,
I would like to love myself first.

I stopped strumming and placed the guitar down gently.

I walked up to a mirror.
A mirror which reflected an image of me.
I looked at the mirror for awhile.
I closed my eyes before finaly saying,

'Sorry'

Sink

Negative thoughts flood back to my mind.
The positive, trying their best to resist.
Trying to think of all the happy times.
But to no avail.

I'm clueless.
I'm lost.

Is there no hope for someone like me?

Mind is drowning..
Slowly..
Into the cobalt lake..

Tried struggling..
To no avail..
The hands of the negative continued to pull me back down.

Water surface.
Beautiful from the top.
However, what awaits at the bottom is darkness.

As I go deeper down..
I can't see anything.
Blinded by the fear of rejection and acceptance.
Stabbed by the constant emptiness I am experiencing.

Deeper..
And deeper I drowned..

In this darkness,
there was olny one thing I held on to
as I start freezing..

Your warmth and touch..

Qui..c..k..

Im d r o wn in g --

Infinite

Everyday that we live our lives together
Previous days that we drew each page with so, many colors

Open your eyes to see the world that's surrounding us
Open your eyes, let's go and grab a new future

On your mark, spread your wings to the sky

Are you ready to spread?
Kick start your heart, head up high
I believe you can do it
(you can do it now)

Smile when your heart is ready
Go take the path your heading
Follow your heart, believe it
Don't waste another moment
Your password is deep inside of your heart
(...of your heart)

Your own world, is what you make of it
It's inside of you, deep inside of you (deep inside of you)
There is no repeat
Just don't forget about the truth
That every moment is brand new

b O d Y

The body.
Fascinating.
Something to be learnt from it.

Without any interference and influence,
our body will continue functioning without problems.

However,
take for example,
your flesh is being cut.

You feel pain right?
You feel like its the end of the world.
You feel like submitting to the pain.

Now what does your body do?
It tries its best to heal the wound.
Never stoping,
Our body works 24/7,
To stop the blood,
To stop the pain,
and lastly, to mend the wound.

Sometimes, our body manages to recover totaly
However, sometimes,
Scars do remain.

But do the scars hurt anymore?
No.
Instead, it feels numb.

Did our body give up on us even if we're in pain?
Nope.
Instead, it tries its best till the end.

Who is weaker now?
Us.

Nightingale

A sense of anxiety.
A sense of anticipation.

Every night I'm waiting by my window
Waiting for something.

But what is it I'm waiting for?
I kept on asking myself.
Over and over

No matter how much I asked,
No matter how much I begged my brain,
It won't give me an answer.

But I waited.
Hoping for that answer.

Now,
Time has passed.
Though I've aged,
I'm still immature,
still the teenager I used to be.

I went to the window again
and gazed at the night sky.

A cool breeze blew against my face.
I gave a grin.

These few years have done me good.
My conscience is clear.
Now I know what I've been waiting for.

No matter what,
I'll always be waiting for you.

My Midnight Nightingale

Lament

In the breeze of autumn.
I sat under the shady tree.
Watching over someone who has passed on.

Someone who will never come back.
No matter what happens.
That person will be gone forever.

As the autumn leaves begin fall,
I begin strumming on my guitar.
A requiem.
Composed for that beloved love one.

I paused for awhile.
To think about the one who had just passed on.
Memories,
Can never be erased.
No matter how hard one tries.
Bitter, sweet or sour,
They will be kept in our souls
Till death is to be upon us.

The leaves continue to fall.
And I continued strumming,
the requiem which I composed.

Flashbacks continued flodding my mind.
Of the times we spent together.
Never gonna forget them.
Not going ignore them.

However, all I could do now is regret.
Regret for taking things for granted.

As I strummed the last few parts of the requiem,
I noticed that the leaves had stopped falling.
And in turn, the surrounding,
were covered in a blanket of white snow.
It was already winter.

Finally, I came to a stop.

Negative thoughts began coming into my mind.
I was lost.
Lost both spiritually and physically.

Disowned..
No matter where I go.
What's the use of continuing?

However, a voice at the back of my head,
kept me from giving up.

What is it actually?

The 'voice' stopped.
But it took on the form of memories.
All kinds of memories.
The sad times.
The happy moments.
It began to make sense to me now.

No matter what happens,
I still have friends and family.

Wherever I go,
That fact will never change.

For,

"I am not afraid to keep on living.
I'm not afraid to walk this world.
Nothing people say will stop me from going home"

Slinging my trusty guitar round my shoulder,
I began my journey on finding my 'home'.

Friend

Whenever I am down.
Whenever I need help.
There are a few people I would turn to.
My parents.
My grandmother.
My siblings.
But last but not least,
My friends.

My friends.
People whom were strangers before we met.
From totaly different backgrounds.
But all that didn't matter.
We are connected by a bond now.

My friends.
People whom I could trust.
People whom I could count on.
People whom I would gladly help out.
People whom I wish to treasure.

My friends.
Different races,
Different colour,
Different language.
But all that didn't matter.
For were together now.

As for those who detest me,
I could just give a sigh.
Hate me for all I care.
Just know that, I would accept you as my friend.
No matter what,
All I want is a big chain of friends.

Thus we are able to help each other out.
Weaknesses can be overcomed together.

When we are outside,
Friends are our family.
We should look out for each other,
Take care of each other
and try to get along together.

My friends.
Hear me now.
"There is no such things as strangers. They are olny friends whom we have not met"

Smile

Smile.
A smile so pure
As pure as snow.
Energizing.
An expression which warms my heart.
Refreshing.
Rids my mind from poisonous thoughts.
It gave me a new pair of wings
to stand on my two feet once more
and soar to reach beyond the clouds.

However, smiles can be decieving.
Your smiles were nothing but lies.
Nothing but a masquerade
Where evil and misfortune reside.
To think that I was naive
for actually relying on you.

Those wings that you gave,
were forcefuly ripped away by you.
I realised that I was wingless.
I began plumeting from the sky above.
I knew that choices had consequences.
This was my payment.
If this was my destiny,
I would gladly accept it.

I admit for my mistakes.
Thought it's too late to repent,
Before I'm gone,
I will,
With a smile,
Say thank you
To my friends,
To my family,
To my enemies,
To the people who hated me for my past misdoings.

As I said all that out,
I closed my eyes,
A big grin on my face.
With a big, final, sigh,
I said, One last, Final, Thank You.

Cobalt x Monochrome

I entered the forest.
A forest of no return.
Rumour has it that eden was within it.
Being a human,
It's within him to find his peace of mind.

Thus I began my journey.
A journey where there is no turning back.
My compass facing the north,
I stood in front of the thick forest.

Once I entered the forest,
there was no light.
It was full of despair.
I went blind.
My sense of sight was erased totaly.

However, with the goal to keep on going,
I kept on trecking through the darkness.
Where was I going, I had no idea.
I kept on walking and walking..

Walking..

Walking..

I finally break into a sprint.
But to no avail,
I didn't seem to have moved.

I came to a halt.
I looked around me.
My mind was in a helpless state.
I was confused and lost.
Why? I told myself.

Just then, I remembered my goal.
Why I was here.
And that is to find Eden.

I closed my eyes
And calmed my mind.
I kept on thinking that I would achieve my goal.
The thought of what eden would be like,
kept on swirling in my mind.

From there, I kept on walking and walking.
I trusted my senses and relaxed myself.
I kept on walking till I slammed into something hard.

I stummbled to the ground.
My eyes blinked open.
What stood infront of me was a tree.
I was captivated.
Not by the tree but soemthing else.

At the bottom of the tree, was a flower.
But not just any flower.
A Cobalt flower.
Something which is one of it's kind.

I looked around and noticed that
there was another simmilar tree
and the same flower at the exact same position.
I looked at what seemed like a gate infront of me.

The moment I stepped into it,
the darkness was swept away.
Sunlight took over.
What was infront of me was breathtaking.
Meadows and meadows of Cobalt flowers were littered everywhere.

However, just before I could take another step, I was swallowed by darkness again.

I was left on my knees.
"I guess, Eden isn't for anyone to come knocking on huh?"

However, I picked myself up and discarded any signs of sadness.
What was left in this darkness which I could see.
Was that one Cobalt flower.
Radiating a bluish light from it.

I went forwards and sat by it.
Even in the darkness.
Even if I can't return to where I came from,
Even if I were to lose everything,
I still have this one little flower.

But as soon as I touched the flower,
It turned greyish and faded to dust.

I fell into dispair.
I knew that I won't live long.
It was at that time that I know that.
There are some things which should be left alone.

Never

I'm sick.
Sick and tired of crying.
Why do I give up before I achieve something?
Why am I a cowardly person?
Why oh why?

However,
Your smiling face delivers light that heals me.
It makes me rejuvinated.
Ever ready to take on anything.
And anything which comes my way.

You're my friend which I respect, care for and treasure the most.

People are bewildered that life must end
And time strikes them harshly.
But even if this world ends today,
I will still protect you.

However, my feelings for you cannot be erased
Nor deleted like computer data.
Memories with you are so hard to forget.
I enjoyed your company.

Your smile.
Like a precious treasure which I will guard.
Gave me the courage to rush past anything.
To never give up and move on!

I want to be with you.
I've fallen and tasted the ground.
But you were the one which kept me going.
I will never trade it for the world.

I love you.
Ever so dearly.
However, this voice does not reach you.
But, I will not give up!
I will continue trying until this voice of mine,
reaches your ears.

Until that day comes,
I will not give up!
Never ever!

People are frightened of encountering the end of their lives,
But I'm not afraid.
Even if this world ends today,
I will still love you.

But as friends we are now,
I would like to thank you.
However, even if I said thank you a million times,
It still wont be enough
To repay your kindness
and that priceless smile.

My friend..

My friend..

I'll continue waiting.
Patiently..
Waiting..
Till that forked path comes
Where you'll be the one to decide my fate.

Be it the path of acception or rejection,
I will accept my destiny.
However, if I do get rejected.
We will still be friends right?

Love has expiry dates

It started out fine.
Her smile kept me going through the day.
While my craziness made her smile.
It was an infinite loop.
Or so I thought.

Being friends for awhile,
My feelings grew for her.
Growing..
Expanding..
Every single waking moment
where I am by her side.

However, this feelings weren't realised.
For on this rainy night,
my heart which has just been glued back together,
started to have cracks on it.
For she was with a third party.

And a third party which was much more closer
and whom she trusted more.

Under my umbrella..
Under the pouring rain..
Pounding onto the shield which protects me
and keeps me dry,
I confesed her by phone.

And on that overhead bridge I waited..
Waiting for an answer..
Waiting intently..
I could feel my heart beating fast.

When that little screen came to life,
I opened that message without wasting anytime.

However...

Tears started coming out..
I dropped my shield..
I came onto my knees.
The stream of tears
becoming one with the rain..

I thought that we had gotten somewhere.
But..
alas,
I realized that Love has expiry dates too..
And that day was on this quiet night..

I bare this sorrow alone.

Teacher

I am just but a hatchling.
However, you were the one who natured me.
Natured me so that I could spread my wings.
And fly away from the comfort of this nest.

You thought me the hardships of the cold world.
You thought me essential things needed to survive
in this harsh and competitive world.

Whenever I have any problems,
I would always know that
I could count on you.
Knowing that you will be all ears.

You would scold me when I'm wrong.
Praise me when I'm improving
but never making me be ahead of myself.

3 years passed fleetingly.
You've thought me all you can.
You gave me the push without me knowing.
Not realizing that you were not there any more.
To support me.
To teach me.

I found out that, I could soar.
I could raise my head up high
and touch the clouds.

But no matter what,
I would glance back to that nest.
To see her teaching others.

I would go back to the comfort of that nest
and ask,

Teacher?

Torn Thread

The was once a doll.
A doll of superb grade and manufacture.
However, there was olny one in the world.
And the messed up part is,
No one knows about it.

For this doll,
Looks just like a human.
It has emotions too.

One day,
He was roaming the streets.
However, as he pass that particular place.
He notices a room which is always lit
Late at night.

Curious,
He peered through the window,
on a cold snowy night.

In there was a young girl.
A girl who is bedriddened.
It seems that, she is suffering
from depression.

Yet, the sad thing is,
She doesn't have any parents
Nor anyone who will take care of her.
She was in a mess.
But beautiful, she was.

The doll was captivated by her beauty.
From then on, he decided to be her guardian.

The moment he entered the room,
the girl spun towards his direction.
She gasped.
It was the most angelic thing
she had ever seen in her life.

His shoulder length hair flowing gently.
His footsteps just as quiet as he is.
He approaced her.
With a smile.
A smile which is so strong
that it just makes a person want to smile too.

The girl replied back with a smile.
From then on, they became the best of friends.
However, little did she know that,
He has developed feelings for her.

Even though a doll,
he is just like a human with emotions.
In fact, she didn't know he was a doll.

As time passed by,
The girl had recovered from her illness.
However, little did she know that,

He was starting to fade..

He is but a doll..

They too have a 'life span'.

Even though he was 'sick' and rotting within,
He kept it away from her.
He tried desperately to continue,
making her smile and laugh.
For there was nothing which he treasured more.

The flow of time continued.

When the girl who is now a fully grown lady,
came back from work,
He was sitting by the window,
Gazing at the heavy rain outside.

He turned his head around and smiled.

The lady,
too tired,
Smiled back and tucked in without changing her clothes.
But before she fell asleep, he said,

"I've been with you all this while.
I've watched you grow up.
I've raised you.
I love you so much I can't bare to let you go.
But, nothing lives forever..
No matter what, I'll keep living in your heart".

With all the powers he had left, he made her fall asleep.

The next day, the lady went to work as usual.

"Hey, what's that on your desk?"her colegue asked.

Her reply?

"It's just my guardian angel which has been with me and will be with me till the end of time"

Glue x Glass (Part 2)


His hair was ruffled.
His clothes were worn.
His skin was soaked to the bone.
His heart had a void in it.

The boy was just coming home from school.
In the heavy rain..
He passed by the town..
He then looked at one of the shophouses.

And there it was..

Standing right infront of the display.
Full of grace,
Beauty,
and mostly, complete.

The boy dropped his heavy load
and ran towards the shop.
He stared in awe at how beatiful
the end product was.
It was even more beautiful then he ever imagined.

It was out-of-this-world..
Simply put, perfection.

But, as he gaped at the sculpture,
the man from before and chased him away..

Back at home his humble but run downed abode,
he laid on his make shift bed,
a piece of cloth and
his pillow which was his school bag..

He knew all hope was gone in getting her back..
It was imposible..
He felt hopeless and useless..

He looked up at the whole in the roof.
He could see the sky again..
As he continued to gaze at the stars, he fell asleep..

In his dream, he met his late sister..
His sister just said something simple..

"Believe,
Pray,
Place your hopes.
But if you don't work for it,
You won't get what you want..
Therefore,
Follow your heart..Believe in yourself
and you'll achive the things you want.

Even if you fail, you knew that you did your best.
It's better to fall doing something then to do nothing!"

With a smile, the boy regained conciousness..

Full with grit and determination,
His desire to get back the sculpture,
was burning brighter then ever.
The flame in his heart was rekindled.

He stormed out of his house
and onto town
and into the shop.

The young man was stunned.

The boy was a boy no more.
He is a matured man.

Like a bird,
He had spread his wings
and learned how to fly.
He knew what to do.
It's better to go down
then to go down doing nothing,
with regrets..

He snatched the sculpture
and ran for it.
He ran as fast as his legs could carry him.
His house was in sight,
He barged right in.

Once home,
He placed the sculpture
where it was supposed to be.

Right under the hole in the roof.
Letting the moon,
light the sculpture up
with the moonlight.

The boy gazed at the sculpture in awe.
He was on the brink of obsession.

Just then, he could see a tear
coming down from the sculpture.

He thought he was seeing things.
But no.

Now streams of tears,
were pouring down the sculpture's 'eyes'.

He could hear the sculpture calling to him.

He came nearer to the sculpture..

"I was glad that you took the time
and tried to fix me up..
I'm sorry for being such a burden..
But I feel even sorry for you
when I see you like this..

The reason you found me broken
in the first place was because
was because the 1st owner became
obssesed over me..
He prefered me over his wife
Thus she broke me to pieces..

However, you almost completed me.
But was taken away by that man..
I gave a sigh of relief..
I thought that you'd be better of
without me..

But, I did not expect you to come
back for me. Then on, I knew that,
you were slowly turning into that
person.

I believe that, you're better of without me
I do not wish to see you like this..
You're deserve better..

I'm sorry.."

Just before he could take another step,

From behind him however,
a shadow lurked.

His barrel of salvation,
was now nothing more then
something with the intent of murder.

With the click of the triger,
a glint of silver
ejected out of the barrel
with a bang for a second..

And pierced the boy's heart from behind
with a blink of an eye.

He clutched his chest
and looked at his palm.

It was stained with crimson.

His vision was getting blurry.
He dropped to his knees.
Blood splattered on the cold floor
and on the sculpture..

On his dying breath, he said,
"I'm sorry..
For dirtying your beauty..
with blood.."

Glue x Glass

There was once a boy
Whom one day, found broken pieces of glass
Which was actually pieces from a
beautiful..
stunning..
sculpture.

He tried using all the glue
which he had at his disposal.
However, to no avail,
The pieces just won't stick together..

Till one day, he stepped out of his house,
and bought a new type of glue instead.

He brought it home
and started to put the pieces together.
It worked!
Thus, began the slow process
of putting the broken pieces together,
just like a jigsaw puzzle.

However, just before he could finish,
another person rasped on his
humble but run-downed door.

The boy opened the door to find,
a handsome,
young man,
stood infront of him.
He came in without saying a thing
and took the broken pieces
and nearly completed sculpture with him.

Before he left, the man stopped
turned around and sniggered.
"Mine.."

The boy was just left there.
His legs were rooted to the ground.
He couldn't move.
His chest tightened up.
It was hard to breathe.
His hardwork and dedication,
was taken away just like that.
And he couldn't do a single thing about it..

He felt helpless..
Devastated..
Confused..
Negativity began flooding into his mind..
Throwing off all the positive thoughts
which he had from before..

His legs gave way and fell onto the cold floor..
He landed on his knees..
And looked up.

Up..
Up to the stars above.
What a beatiful night it was..
Just then, he saw a shooting star..

He held his hands together
Prayed..
and made a wish..
He wished that..
If he was given the chance..
Even if it was a taste..
He would like to be loved by someone..
Treated like an equal..
Gain wealth..even if it's alittle..
And most still, to complete that
unfinished sculpture which was forcefuly taken away..

He then realised that tears poured from his eyes
and could finally move again.

He then looked at the bottle of glue
and picked it up.
He looked at the spot where the sculpture should have been placed..
And said..

"Oh beautiful sculpture..
If olny you could hear my voice..
You're one of the most beautiful things
which I've come across..If olny I could have finshed
patching you up together..I'm sorry I finished halfway..
and to use such cheap glue to patch you up..Such a person
like me, doesn't deserve to keep you, let alone patch you up..

I'm sorry..

I'm sorry...."

His grasp on the bottle became loose,
causing it to drop on the floor and roll to a corner..

He started crying again..Saying sorry over and over..

Stargazer

I gazed at the stary sky late at night..

What a beautiful sight it was..
The stars,
Glittering..
Shining..
Right into the night..

However, I get to see another type of star..
Be it day or night, I still get to see..

For, she is also a star..
A star in many ways.

A star Athlete
A telented drummer

And when I gaze into her eyes,
they glint..
and shine back at me..

I'm just but a stargazer..
Gazing into space..

Life, to me which is not known.
A future which is not promised.
I keep on living for the sake of living..

This poem was like a flower, which fades away in time.
A perishing poem that never strikes the heart.

Zero to Hero

Sometimes a dreamer,
Is a loser.

Somtimes, Reality,
Isn't what it seems to be.

Therefore,

Dare

To

Dream..

Don't give up hope.

When the going gets tough,
Roughen up and just be tougher.

Even if you fall, you'll know that
You've done you're best
And don't blame yourself for your failure

For you know that you've given your al

Miseinen

I was frantically looking for something.
It's okay to stumble, so go forward.
I know it's foolish, I just run on without regret.
The only one I can trust is myself, I didn't need friends.
The fangs I bared at anything and everything,
sexual stuff in adolescence is delicate and fleeting.
I wanna be strong, give me the strength to live on my own,
honestly, I was just scared of betrayal.
I knew that nothing would change if I kept running away
but I couldn't change myself.
The loneliness I prided myself on
was a pair of wings to escape to my worthless dreams.
The self assertion I prided myself on called 'RIOT',
there was no freedom, nothing beyond this light.
Teenage Bluely Days,
I was drowning in each rough new day.
Before I knew it I was shouldering such loneliness.
It was hard. To be honest,
I really didn't want to be on my own.

Since always pretending to be strong makes one forget one's true face.
It's important to occassionally loosen up and rely on others.
Hurt... When you want to cry, face the great big sky
and scream out in a loud voice.
That you want to forget yourself, so you can keep being who you are.
The encouraging voices of my father, my mother, and my friends
spurred on, even one so weak as myself, they gave me light.
The loneliness and pain of my youth that I prided myself on
were a pair of wings to escape to my worthless dreams.
If there's a freedom to be had in that clear blue sky
I wouldn't care if these wings I'm so proud of were torn off.
I began running, frantically aiming for the sky
I spread my wings and flew away, and the spot where I fell
was 'freedom'.
With a wonderful family, and wonderful friends
these were the best days of my life, if I'm reborn
let's meet again...

Rain x Snow

Wind,
Blowing against my face.

I wake up in the morning with a frown on my face.
I look out of my window
and what did I see?

The clouds were grey.
I could feel the wind getting stronger.
I could see thunder and lighting.
Striking angrily, just like my anger and angst
Which I have been bottling up this years.

Visibility was low.
My mind is as clouded as the sky.
I'm as lost as a wandering soul.

Where should I go next?

What do I do now?

What is my existence here for?

After so much that has happened, I remembered my passion.
That burning desire which I had since a child.

I've gained enlightenment and I know now what I'm supposed to do.

On this rainy christmas, I sit silently by my window..

Wishing..

Hoping..

Praying..

For this christmas, It's snowing in my heart.
Freezing all needless emotions
and the fiery passion will soon melt
all this snow which will soon mark the start of spring.

To be able to race for eternity,
To feel the wind brushing against my face
and most of all, to be able to enter a world of my own,

That's what I wanted all along.

But for now,
I just need to enjoy the snow
And be frozen till spring comes.

Honto ni Arigato (Thank you,Truly)

I fell into a deep slumber
A slumber which I can't forget up till now
And it's due to the fact that I dreamt of something.

Something which I will never forget.

In that dream, I met my first love. My first kiss.

Ahh..How sweet the dream was.
But, All good things come to an end.

In just a few, I regained conciousness
and was faced with reality again.

It was a dream which wasn't meant to be
And never will be.

God gave me a taste of how it was like to be in love
but, he also has the power to take it away.

How much of an idiot could I be,
for not cherishing it while it lasted.

I don't know what to say to myself.
For I love this one person so much.

Even though I said I was alright infront of my friends,
Truth is, I just can't get over it.

Why can't mermories be altered like computer data?

I believe, there's a reason so.
And that is to make us remember the past.

We should look back into the past,
If there was mistakes committed, then we should learn from our mistakes.
If it were beautiful memories, we should hang on to them and cherish them for eternity.

We shouldn't be embarrased nor hide our past away.
We should make it a learning experience instead.

All this, I speak of,
Was triggered by that dream.
It's like pulling the trigger of a gun.
Where in an instant, a bullet will be shot out.
A bullet can either be used to kill for one's self or to protect.
It's a double edged sword.

Thatnks to that dream,
I learnt more about this world and have a more insight and perspective on things.

I thank you for that.

Thank you.

Truly, Thank you.

The end of the world

In the end where this sky goes,
The waves of the future can't be seen yet.

As long as we've lived how many of us have risen above fate?
Who's going to teach us, who's going to ask us?

People are frightened of encountering the end of their lives,
But I'm not afraid.
Even if this world ends today,
I will still love you.

The sunbeams streaming through the leaves are gentle,
But for that eternity cried.

The earth becomes blue in my overflowing sorrow
Words wither, and love is all that remains, right?

People are bewildered that life must end
And time strikes them harshly.
But even if this world ends today,
I will still protect you.

Your smiling face delivers light that heals me.

People are frightened of encountering the end of their lives,
But I'm not afraid.
Even if this world ends today,
I will still love you.

I only want to be with you

I don’t know what it is that makes me love you so
I only know I never want to let you go
‘Cause you started something, can’t you see
That ever since we met you’ve had a hold on me

It happens to be true
I only want to be with you

You stopped and smiled at me, asked me if I’d care to dance
I fell into your open arms and I didn’t stand a chance

Now listen honey, I just wanna be beside you everywhere
As long as we’re together honey I don’t care
‘Cause you started something, can’t you see
That ever since we’ve met you’ve had a hold on me

No matter what you do
I only want to be with you

No matter (no matter) what you do
I only want to be with you

No matter (no matter) what you do
I only want to be with you


I’m a Loser

When I talk to you, I can’t find the thing to calm my heart’s sorrow

I don’t know the time when my stretched head was connected to my neck

Hold my hands

The betraying cloud soon clears up

Yes, a grain of light flows through a rift between clouds

Oh tell me what you want

An ordinary sorrowful farewell

Oh tell do you feel the same?

A destination where untouching words still do not remain...

Oh tell me what you want

Distant land with uncertain partings

Give me a chance to catch my breath
Give me a chance to catch my breath

Tired from walking, Just let me rest already..


Now I'm sure

It’s not easy to explain
The way I feel for you
Though sometimes I cause you pain
But never meaning to
I could never hurt you
Without hurting myself
Cause you’re part of me now
Part of me like nobody else
And I just pray every day
Nobody takes you away
Cause I need you
And no one could love you more
Now I’m sure Now I’m sure
I’m through with all those years
Of wandering
I made you cry
But dry your tears
Cause now I’m sure
Now I’m so sure
I know I’ll never need
Somebody more
Cause you’re the one
I’ve waited for
And now I’m sure