Hokay. It's been quite a good day I must say. Went out with SD, Bya, Kaen, Shiki, Ayano and her friend =D

We met up at Chinatown station at around 12+. The noah's, meaning me and kaen were late and there was the noah connection again cos we arrived at almost the same time xD Well, we went to buy SD's shoes at people's park complex I think .__. and headed to pan-in-the-box after that to get kaen to talk to the boss for job application~ While the rest were eating at subway, the boss called for me and we discused bout work on monday. I just hope the pressure doesn't get to me D8

From there, we moved on to Dhoby ghaut to play at the arcade. From then on, people began leaving one by one. And at the end of the session at the arcade, it was left with me, Bya, SD and Kaen. Oh and I tried my hand at playing Jubeat. And man I suck xD

We then managed to stop SD from playing on and went to Plaza Singapura to get SD and Bya's CNY clothes. Truth be told that was actually the 1st time I went out with friends to buy clothes D8 Usually it's with my mum. (Mommy's boy HAHA!)But it was quite enjoyable I must say ^^

All of us part ways around 6 and I headed to City hall to meet up with my Lead Guitarist, Syahmee. We made haste for Davis Guitar as he wanted to order an ESP Eclipse /w Tremolo arm. A really high end guitar which is worth 1.5k. Sadly, when we arrived there, the shop was closed =w= Eventhough I didn't have to get or do anything, I can help but feel kinda empty as we're like leaving empty handed. So I suggested we go get some snack and head for the esplanade in hopes that there'll be a gig. And lo and behold! There actually was a gig at 7:30pm. The band performed songs from the Blues genre. And I must, the both of us was quite intriqued by it. For a moment there, it almost converted us to take up blues >__<

But it was a good change from the heavy, rock songs we usually hear. As we got to my house, we whipped out our guitars and began practicing, "Taion". And boy did we improve on our chemistry to work together. The sound that was produced was alot more harmonious and just plainly sounds good =3

In a way, the day was a really good one. I've managed to cheer myself up alittle. People around me are happy, I think. Well, that's it from me for today. Will be working officially in a few hours time so I've gotta get my beauty sleep =D

Adios~

PS: Here are some pics of the gig by the esplanade
http://s466.photobucket.com/albums/rr29/weissritter_13/Gig%20by%20the%20river/

Hokay. An update!

Getting straight to the point, I've just missed the jaws of results when I got back my results. And did I say, horrible results? 20 points for L1R2 + CCA. As much as I've dissapointed those who had even a small amount of expecations, I feel that the person I've let down the most was myself. I mean, I feel that I've given it my all and yet this is the shitty results that I get? Whereas those who either don't pay attention in class, skip school can get better grades then me?! Especially maths. I friggin missed out on all engineering courses from all the poly's except for Republic's cos my maths got a D7!! Gaahh! *whacks self* After all that effort..But still..Sigh..

I am lost. Confused. Dazed. Alone. And just afraid of what the future lies for me. I am forced to take a course which I have absoulutely no intrest in. Will I be able to accept that course and have a bright future? Will I be able to make it into the University? Questions which will not show the answers till sometime in the near future..I am so afraid right now..

Despite my future looking bleak right now, the present is quite alright..I'm finally employed at Pan-in-the-box's Downtown East outlet. With this, I'm able to fund my cosplay projects. Especially my Justocorps costume which my friend has quoted, would cost me 1k again >__> This time, I feel that my money would be in safe hands and that he won't let me down..Another thing would be Negi lending me his ESP LTD F-10 electric guitar. Thanks to it, I've been able to play 2 new songs and currently learning another one. And I must say, my friend's theory of the grade of the guitar playing an important role in the guitarist's development is true. With a better grade guitar like Negi's F-10, I've been able to play songs which I thought I'd never be able to play in a long time. Yet I managed to play em in just a matter of days. That being said, maybe I should just save up abit more and order a custom ESP model? But I guess, then, I'd not be worthy of that guitar. So it'll still be the F-250..Which is coming soon since the F-50s have arrived at the shop.

Other than that, i seriously think..I just need someone to comfort me..If not that something or someone to make me laugh..and laugh my doubts and distress away..

The days have passed and I think I've begun settling into the new year. And by golly! What fun has this pass few days been. You could say they were those better days which I've had in my life.

I mean, just letting your hair down. Going on crack, laughing, having fun. To top it up, they were with people which I least expected or do not talk to much in the past. I must also thank SD for showing me Melindachan's video logs. Yes, they were fun to watch and it had me laughing for a few good hours. However, it thought me a valuable lesson behind all that fun and laughter. And that is my mentality as a cosplayer. I mean, just by watching a few of those video logs, I noticed the difference between our cosplay community and the American cosplay community.

The peeps in America are really laid back and the one thing in their minds when they put on their costumes and go for an event is to have fun. And boy do they really ensure that it will be fun. What bout us back in little Singapore? What do we feel when we put on our costumes? I'm sure there's fear of being flamed, fear bout not being perfect/good looking in costume. It's all fear, uptight and such. Not that I'm saying that we don't have fun. But seriously, we're too uptight and such. Another thing bout the peeps in America, it doesn't matter if your fat,big,tall,small,short,tanned,white or whatever. They really don't care. Here's an example. A big sized cosplayer doing a character which is smaller sized. People there don't ignore him/her. They actually go to them and say, "Hey man. Your looking good there" or "Nice costume". Over here..What do we get?? People will tend to ignore these people and go look for those elite cosplayers. And when they get home what happens? Flames and shit storms happen. As I see all these I can just give a sigh and shake my head. Another good example is when the cameraman in the video log shouts, "HEY GUYS! YOUR ON YOUTUBE!". And their reaction? A big and wonderful "HI!". What if you try doing that in Singapore? People will go, "Siao", walks away/hides self or of course a minority who are on high would say "Hi".

As I watched more video logs, I felt that if people don't change their mentality, I should change mine. This is so, I'd get best of both worlds. I'd learn to enjoy myself more and be less uptight yet not neglecting on my costume ^^

Well, that's my rant for my depression on being a cosplayer who's odds are stacked against me.

O level results are released on the 12th of January 2009 at 2pm. It's gonna be D-day on that day..What would be the result of being in 5 years of secondary school be..Oh great one, I've tried my best. I want to get into poly so please grant my wish. It's been a good so far. So, all I need to make it real is just one more reason..

That and let me get my job at Pan-In-The-Box! RAWRR!!