Hey all. Found sometime to update. Well, during my daily guitar practice sessions, I finally decided to record the song, Taion but the GazettE again. You see, previous recordings were all crap due to the distortion. And now, I think i've made a breakthrough. The distortion finally loves my phone recorder. By the way, it's just audio cos I can't find a way to make my phone stand and record while I play =w= Well, I shall just shut and let you hear the end product. This is Taion, by the Gazette, covered by yours truly.



P.S: Do go to the actual youtube URL to leave a comment ^__^

It's day 4 of my "Save-myself-revision" and with the things are going I doubt I can last by the 2nd week. Evolving flies and stress sure don't go together.

You must be wondering why or what in the world are these evolving flies which I am talking bout. Well, you see, recently there's these sudden breeding of tiny, green-blooded and proclaimed to be harmless flies which started at the reservoir directly infront of my school. We noticed this sudden increase of breeding when were all waiting for the bus at the bus stop. And trust me, it was like a locust storm cept it's not that harmful. We thought it was and going to be the last time we see this things, however...

The next day, when we came to school, the ourbreak began. The school was infested with these flies. The whole school wasn't spared. Toilets were full of em from what I heared with masses of em clinging together on the toilet door..Well, it taking up every nook and crany is one thing. Psychological and mental irritation came after that. You could practiacally see every person in commonwealth with a cranky mood due to these bugs when they come to school. Those people who still endeure it, like me, will, I swear, become patient people once this outbreak is resolved..

It's not just that, these bugs are evolving. They are becoming bigger and there's a whole range of colours to choose from =w=

Well, battling with stress and these bugs from 19hours daily has been draining. Though I must say, it's really building up my tolerance. And I feel that my maths have been improving. Once I'm confident with my maths, it's on to sciences for me. Then all that's left is to shape and create a miracle to let me leap 15 grades from L1R4 30 to L1R4 15..

Well, that's for school. Social wise, I've been becoming quite quiet. The whole month of fasting where I restrain myself from swearing, being angry has done me some good. I talk lesser and don't get pissed as easily. I hope it does continue for years to come...

There was once when I was talking to a friend of mine and we were describing ourselves by using metaphors. When it came to the topic, "plants and flowers", it seems that she described me as a Touch-me-not because I keep things to myself. Kinda true really. I may be open and true bout what I say and all but there's always this layer of thick wall which keeps the real, real me in check from being shown to the eyes of people. Oxymoron I must say but that's how I describe it.

I guess that's about it for today's post. God knows when I'll update again, so peeps who have been reading yet lurking around, do continue reading and drop a message or two on the tag board on the left hand side of this blog ^^


O level "Save-myself-revision" Programme.

Status
Currently at day: 4
H/P: 57/100
Remarks: Stressed and irritated by evolving flies

Okay. Frankly, I'm not really feeling happy. I'm agonised, disheartened and frightened with my prelim 2 results. My sciences dropped and my maths only improved by a small margin. This cannot be happening. And the O levels are coming in just 26 days..Most people would say it's too late for anything now. But I say screw it. I'll perform a miracle again like how I did last year by completing my DnT project within 3 days before the deadline. This time, I'll use this 26 days to create and mould that miracle into reality.

But..I'm afraid..

I'm scared..

In the end, this battle, I face alone.

When will I stand on my own two feet.

Come on..You can't stay in your nest forever..

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Okaaay~ Another update =D

Well, noting much really just wanted to pen down some moments I had for the past two days.

Tuesday:
Maths paper 1 for prelim 2 was a killer. I notice that I do better in paper two then one o__o Something is definetly wrong with me xD Anyways, went to play soccer with classmates. Wanted to test how long I could last out in the hot sun during the month of Ramadhan. And I've gotta say, I'm getting old. Could only last for like 1hr+. Trudged back home and rested till it was time to eat. Apparently my mum wanted to stuff me to death with a whole mountain of kway teow x__x I managed to finish the damn thing after like 4 hours later.

Today: Had no papers today so slept through the rest of the morning. Woke up and had the sudden urge to play pokemon again. All thanks to Shiki who showed me humanised versions of pokemons. And they look seriously cool.

Here's the link to the website:http://s536.photobucket.com/albums/ff326/_Absol_/pokepeople/?start=all

Well, practically played pokemon the whole day. Got 4 badges and collected over 70 out of 150 pokemon already xD Yeah, was a pretty slow day today. And AGAIN, my mum is gonna make me fat >__> She ordered KFC and made me eat 4 pieces of chicken, a packet of popcorn chicken, zinger burger and whipped potato. I was able to eat the rest uptill the chicken part =__= You could practically see the amount of oil on the chicken! And there's 4 of em!! The moment I ate it, couldn't help but have this thought in my mind, "Oh shit..Look at the fat i'm eating" So, I ate 3 and a half of the chicken with the skin being left over. I think I might have chiken-o-phobia for quite a while xD

This song is dedicated to my agent. A wonderful friend. A reliable one to boot. In no way am I able to repay her kindness. This song is personal to me and..And never mind. On with the song..

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Kare Uta
Gazette
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Unable to search for the meaning of my heart's empty song
When I turned around, there was nothing left
As time passes, the song fades like a flower
A withered song that doesn't echo

Longing for the past, we grow apart
I knew it would happen, so why does it hurt?
How much does the melody that lingers in my ears echo in my heart?

Nothing has changed since then
I'm facing forward, but it's strange
You're gradually growing so distant I can't reach
I thought we were both lonely
So what am I longing for? I don't know anymore
Before I realize it, you've flown off somewhere
I realize my powerlessness and turn around
And there was my dried-up self

When things are too sad to bear
There's a song without lies that spills over like tears
When I'm too happy for words
I wish I could sing a song like a smile...

The violent trembling still continues
If I hold my breath and stand still
It's like back when there was nothing
I don't want to go back to those cold days

Since I was small I dreamed in dreams
One step at a time
We supported each other, laughing together
We cried and got hurt
Let's walk together in the same-colored dream

When things were too hard to bear
The weakness you showed supported me; I have faith in you
And I can only say it with clumsy words, but
I want to stay here until my withered voice gives out

When things are too sad to bear
There's a song without lies that spills over like tears
When I'm too happy for words
I wish I could sing a song like a smile...

I want to stay here until my withered voice gives out

Until my withered voice gives out...

Day 3 of spring cleaning my friend's house. Ended the cleaning in 2 hours due to my foul mood. Though abit surprised at the amount I recieved for cleaning up his house for the past 3 compound days. $50..Lot of money. Ahh..Must be due to god loving his followers who are trying their best to do good deeds during the month of Ramadhan. Shan't drag. I'll end it here.

Bottle bottle
Why haven't you reached your limit?
(Cos I can't)

Bottle bottle
Why haven't you give way?
(Cos I can't)

Bottle bottle
Isn't it time you let it go away?
(Cos I'm afraid)

*Slumps on bed*
Phew~Spring cleaned my friend's house, part 2 xD It's the second day of cleaning my friend's two storied house and I must say, it's a killer. My back is sore and my brain is malfunctioning thanks to the pungent smell of soap >__< But all these was worth it as I'm getting paid. How much? I have no idea xD

Anyways, like any musician, he or she is sure to want to create their very own melodies. For that, I'm gonna try and pen down my own melody. A rock ballad to be exact. Though I may not have the vision of the sound that I'm gonna produce, I'm gonna try and make the lyrics first. Who knows, make a jap song though I'm not jap XD Google translator shall be my best friend =3 Here's attempt no. 1 entitled Hourglass.

English Lyrics

砂時計~Hourglass~

Illuminated by the midnight constellations,
I was left under that flickering lamp post.
The cruel wind blew against my distorted hair.
Why must life be so unfair?

You were everything
(Though it was lies)
You who kept me alive
(The one who's killing me)

Rain starts to splater
onto my disfigured face.
Warm crimson overflowing
Why must it turn out like this?

You were everything
(Though it was lies)
You who kept me alive
(The one who's killing me)

Times we spent
Give them back!
Till death is to be upon me,
Give me back the sands to fill my leaking hourglass

With my last breath,
I shed that last tear.
My body left to rot over here.

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Romaji Lyrics

mayonaka no seiza ni tera sareta ,
watashi ha hidari posuto sarete LAMP ga meimetsu shimasu .
watashi no hizun da zankoku na kaze no kami hamonosugoku hantai desu .
nazesoushinakereba fukouhei na jinsei desuka ?

anatagasubete
(Though it was lies)
shisei kite hokan suru
(The one who's killing me)

aki no ame wo kaishi suru
mai DISFIGURED ni chokumen shiteimasu .
atataka i shinku afureteiru
konoyounisuru hitsuyou gaarimasu . sorehanazedesuka ?

anatagasubete
(Though it was lies)
shisei kite hokan suru
(The one who's killing me)

kai watashitachi shiyouzumi
atae rukoto sentou !
shi ha watashi nisarerumade ,
atae ru mi^bakkumai more no sunadokei no suna wo ume ru

watashi no saigo no iki wo ,
watashi uwaya ano saigo no namida desu .
kocchihe kite watashi no karada hidari kara ROT desu .

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Yeaaahhhh~ I'm back in my cave and shall pen down..Ehh..I mean type down today's chapter of my life since it's still fresh in my mind~

Woke up at 5am in the morn for breakfast since it's the begining of the fasting season so had to eat before sunrise. Thinking back it feels like being a vampire xD Once the sunrises, can't eat and gotta hibernate or do something preferably good. But today, no time to do so. COS IT'S ZE D.GRAY MAN OUTING =D Finally able to meet some of my team members since I'm always trolling around the thread but never posting.


So, for the time while waiting for 1:45pm to leave my house, I mugged on my maths papers till about 11am where I got tired and started watching Fatal frame trailers =X Apparently, Fatal Frame IV is out in japan and of course, like the past two FF series, TSUKIKO AMANO IS DOING IT'S THEME SONG!!!!Known mostly for her two songs, Chou and Koe, this rock diva sadly is retiring from being a single artist after this last song for fatal frame entitled, ZERO no Chouritsu. I really like her voice. Very powerful.

Anyways, back to the events that happened today..1:45 arrived and I got dressed and went to my hairstylist to straighten and style my hair. Took the cab and arrived just in time @ Marina Square. And trust me I was grabbing every single opportunity to see myself in anything which reflects my image as I HAS SEXY LEGS NOW! RAWWRRR! THANK YOU STRAIGHT CUT PANTS xD

Caught up with the guys and lo and behold, my feelings were right. Got forced to wear neko ears, paws and a TAIL! Man..That was the first for me. Never worn one before. So to be sporting, I just act cute =___=...But yeah, was alittle shy cos most of the peeps I don't know yet. But they were very open so I felt very okay being around them. Played para and I failed velfare. Sigh..And they said I was pro...Which I'm not. Felt very awkward playing since there were more pairs of eyes today. Tried my best but failed Velfare2000. Most tiring song in the songlist. Hid my sorry face at the back of the arcade cos I failed and played a simulation game where I had to kill dudes with a katana. Was fun but apparently I suck cos the sensors didn't follow my wants. That was when one of the DGM team's kanda's, kurohebi came along. Basket, got paiseh'ed infront of her. Cos apparently, Tyki is not meant to wield swords >__<

After all that, we played bowling. This time it was Guys versus girls. The guys team seriously sucked today. We played to rounds. First round us guys won. God knows how. Second round was seriously pathetic. The girls won us by 1 point. So, all in all, it was a draw. So the bet where either gender lost had to pay the other gender drinks was due void.

Had dinner and sent bya, sd and yukiya back to ze west side~

So, the bottomline is, it was a great day today. Though I'm sure I missed half the fun, but it was still great. I hope we have more outings like this and next time get to know the people around me better =3

P.S to bya: Thanks alot for the LAMINATED picture of Tsukiumi. I seriously thought you were keeping the pic for yourself that's why I asked why you were gonna laminate it. But she really looks stunning and the roses complements her beauty well. Thanks again (_ _). It seems that I usually get drawings from girls as presents xD

With that, thy shalt end ze post~