Creep by Radiohead


When you were here before,
Couldn't look you in the eye,
You're just like an angel,
Your skin makes me cry;

You float like a feather,
In a beautiful world,
I wish I was special,
You're so fuckin' special;

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo,
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here;

I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control,
I want a perfect body,
I want a perfect soul;

I want you to notice,
When I'm not around,
You're so fuckin' special,
I wish I was special;

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo,
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh

She's running out again,
She's running,
She runs runs runs runs...
Runs...

Whatever makes you happy,
Whatever you want,
You're so fucking special,
I wish I was special;

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo,
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here,

I don't belong here...

Well. That's that. If sales doesn't do well within the next 3 months, the shop WILL close down.

Heh.

Now the question.

To leave it to close down or help it out..

And so my colleague too wants to quit his job due to the mounting pressure that we're facing. Guess if the both of us quit the job, the boss would panic due to the lack of workers..If we both quit, he'd lose a worker and a good salesperson. Seriously, 4 bucks with 5% commission out of the total sales I make is PEANUTS. I know that I'm a new worker. But couldn't you just increase my pay by 50 cents? I'm travelling from one end to another almost everyday. I've literally sold my soul to the company as I've not spent time even with my family.

Sister: I miss big brother

Me: Huh? Why?

Mum: Cos you always come home at 1 to 2am everyday and when your sis goes to school your still snoring in your room

Only when she said so that I realised how much time I'm spending at work. What with school coming up soon. I'm so gonna quit the job. I mean, I doubt it'd have an impact on anyone. Well maybe the regulars who come in to talk to me would feel kinda sad but still...

Well, that's the major thing on my mind right now. Then there's things about friends. I'm seriously lost as to what to do. Who's in the wrong? Who's in the right? In the end I take all the blame upon myself and see what happens? They'll take advantage of it and repeat the vicious cycle.

I seriously need somewhere, someone, something to rest my head on.

It's 4:15am in the morning and I'm still up.

It seems that my life as a worker at the shop I work for will be short lived.
From next week onwards, I'd have a pair of eyes watching every move I make. This means that I'd have to be at a 110% in whatever I do. So what does this add up to? Extra pressure and stress. Seriously, I can only do sales alone. Yes, I may slack like my colleage but I produce results unlike him. I can exercise my freedom. And man, how am I supposed to sell when there's nobody to sell my products to? Even if the people who come in to the shop, you think persuading them is easy if they are not even into the things we sell? I'm seriously thinking of retiring after april. I'm not in need of money. Neither am I obliged to sell my soul to the company. I'm just doing a favour since I've been recomended for the job.

Sigh..My current form of escapism is gonna be robbed once more and I'll be prone to thinking bout the problems I've shelved all this while. Guess I'm nothing more of a coward. Running away from my problems.

What's with that frown?
Are you feeling down?

With tears that are black,
Are holding back?

Let it be heared.

Let it be screamed.

They'll never take us alive.

Till we die.

Uhh, like seriously.

WHAT

THE

FUCK